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it's just a typical kid going to school
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my sister got very very sick and she had
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an incurable kidney disease at the time
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my sister would have to be at a
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Children's Hospital and back then they
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wouldn't let children go and to see so
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we had to stay outside while she was up
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in the window a we would wave at her you
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know wait hi Kathy and she's and you
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know she'd be there for weeks and weeks
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my mom would be up there with her and me
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and my little sister would be downstairs
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you know outside and it was right on the
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banks of a great lake so we would be
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sitting on the the bank it was huge it
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looked like the ocean to me was a little
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kid it was really big but there was
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these great big boulders and we'd sit on
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those boulders I think me all these dead
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fish
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oh he's fish everywhere it reminded me
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of the mood of how I felt at the time I
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felt dead inside my sister was was dying
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it was very painful time
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and then that we got her home and got
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her stable and then then I got very sick
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inhaled a spore in my lung it guru I was
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probably eight eight or nine I had it
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went into sarcoidosis and my lung my
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fever was like a hundred and six degrees
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my whole body hurt there you are this
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little tiny kid and you're really sick
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and you're in this big Hospital all by
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yourself that was my first encounter
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with an angel there was a man he would
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come every single day and he would take
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me to have the x-rays that I needed to
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have done daily of course I was in
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isolation so I couldn't have any
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visitors or anything so he was the only
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visitor besides my mom that could come
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and see me and he would take me in the
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wheelchair and do pop wheelies and and
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try to get me to laugh and that kind of
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thing at night when I was alone after my
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mom had to go back home and I was alone
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there were times when I would wake up
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and he would be sitting in the corner of
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the room and he would be sitting there
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would be a light as golden light all
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around him he never said anything but he
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would be sitting there in the room
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watching over me while I slept and he
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always made me so happy always made me
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feel so protected and so cared about and
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then one day I was just so tired of
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being in the hospital so tired of being
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sick and I asked him if I if he thought
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I was gonna ever get better and he said
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yeah you're gonna get better you're
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gonna go home tomorrow and the doctor
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came in and I said yeah you're gonna go
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home well I got to go home I will never
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forget his face I will never forget that
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golden light that was surrounded him
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ever devout that just exuded out of him
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was unbelievable and I know that angels
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can you know their essences spirit and
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their station is angel and they can
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appear as anything that they
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- in order to get the job done that
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God's asked him to do and I I just knew
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I mean I just knew when I got older I
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knew I'm when I was younger it was like
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I didn't I just knew I trusted him I
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knew that I felt comfort and safe and
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when my mom wasn't there he was there it
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was kind of like I just can't wait to
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get back to being a kid and then then we
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got the news that we were moving my dad
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worked for DuPont so he got transferred
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to West Virginia and that was a coming
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from Chicago to West Virginia was big
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big culture shock was a big deal
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my mom she wanted us to take swimming
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lessons so we took swimming lessons up
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at the Y and that's where I had my first
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and that was about the age of 13 was
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swimming in the pool and the my
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instructor wanted us to dive headfirst
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like this into the 10-foot section of
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the pool and I watched all the other
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kids do it and they did fine and got out
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of there fine
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but I just had this this foreboding
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noise I couldn't do it like no matter
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how much I stood there and watched
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everybody else come out okay I just
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couldn't do it
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diving with my head forced into 10 feet
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of water it's terrified me and he didn't
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honor that at all he said you are either
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going to do this dive or I'm going to
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throw you in and he grabbed me and he
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threw me in
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I just went right to the bottom I took
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in a bunch of water I was surprised at
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how quickly i drowned laying on the
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bottom and i remember looking up and I
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could see the water rippling and it was
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very strange because I could also see my
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mom who was in the balcony clear across
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the other side of the pool up in the
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balcony where the parents were sitting
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and I could see her face and she was
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just she had does horror horror filled
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look on her face I could see the lady on
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the other side of the pool that had
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little kids in the lifeguard and Here I
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am under ten feet of water
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well while all this was going on and I'm
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watching all of this stuff and it looked
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like their faces were like right here
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and and I could just see him so clear
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just like I'm sitting here talking to
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you I could hear and I heard that like I
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said that one lady that was clear on the
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other end at the three-foot section with
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the little kids she yelled out go in and
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get her his eyes were big and glassy and
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he could not make I mean it was just
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like as all this stuff was going on and
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I'm laying there I see this light you
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know above me it looked like a light
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bulb and I said well one to myself I
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said well what does a light bulb doing
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in a pool that light it was this was
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white and it was bright but it was soft
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at the same time and I felt warm and and
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cocooned like I was wrapped in a blanket
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I felt no pain I felt my fear none
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nothing I felt this love that came
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through that light like you wouldn't
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believe and that light just kept getting
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bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger
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and I'm not sure if I was moving up to
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it or it was moving down to me but it
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just kept getting bigger and bigger
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and just as that light was about to
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touch me I mean it was like this close
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to me and all of a sudden I hear what
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sounds like a metal door slam and it
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echoed the light was gone and I felt all
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this horrendous pain and I was coughing
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and throwing up water and the lifeguard
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what have happened was the lifeguard
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that was behind me that had the
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middle-aged kids had jumped in and he
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was pulling me out of the water and he
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was squeezing my stomach and and trying
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to get me to breathe and they he got me
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it to the side of the pool and was
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working with me to get me to breathe and
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then I guess when I came out of it only
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thing I remember was looking to my side
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and I saw everybody's ankles and legs up
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to their knees you know there's all
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these legs standing around me then I saw
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my mom but then after after that was
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over we went home not another word was
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said about it nothing we didn't talk
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about it I don't know it frightened you
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know was so frightening that nothing was
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spoke about it I didn't talk about it
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I didn't know what it was and I hey
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watch your child die in front of you and
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that's frightening
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I was really physically in shock and I
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think emotionally I was in shock because
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I had no idea what just happened no idea
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whatsoever how do you see all the things
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that I saw and you hear all the things
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that and you're on the bottom and you
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you have stopped breathing and you I
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knew I did but I didn't know what that
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light was I became extremely emotional
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after that happened and I noticed that
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my parents and my sisters and everybody
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around me were kind of like you're kind
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of weird you've got a strange what's
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going on with you something is not right
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with you but I didn't know what was
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going on I was just a little girl I
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remember being able to smell like
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spirits and things when I was about 15
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there were some things happening that
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were very difficult seeing spirits and
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you know other things there were other
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things too when I went and talked to an
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adult about it the adult told me no that
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didn't have this wasn't happening and it
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was like this stubble on your head it's
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not real you know it was just big enough
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that it was and that I took it to an
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adult and I said you know this is what's
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happening and the adult said no no it's
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not happening it's all in your head it's
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not happening well I knew it was and I
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started questioning my own sanity and I
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had planned to kill myself but I didn't
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tell anybody it was a good Friday and we
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were singing in a church in my youth
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choir while we were in the lower part of
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the church waiting to go upstairs to
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have our turn to sing we were practicing
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that the choir was practicing and I was
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sitting in the back row there was two
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ladies sitting in front of me and two
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daughters of one of this ladies sitting
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in front of them and then the rest of
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the choir and I was just kind of a loner
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and i sat in the back well I noticed
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that there was a man that had come in
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and he was approaching and as he got
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closer it was like oh my god oh that's
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Jesus and Here I am 15 years old
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and Jesus walks in and he's it's just
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like my mouth was as dry as a bone I
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couldn't speak I couldn't say anything
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and he walked in and he sat down next to
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me in the chair and he looked at me and
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he smiled I couldn't I mean I didn't
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know what to do when when he walked in
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immediately
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I sensed theirs holiness holiness is in
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this room oh my gosh she was so
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beautiful but he was dressed just like
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normal I mean he was he had on white
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button-down shirt he had
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pair of blue jeans and a pair of boots
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and he had he was probably about 510 511
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he was slim belt but you could tell he
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was muscular he had dark olive
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complexion very brown eyes but what was
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interesting about the eyes is when I
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look deep into his eyes when he was
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sitting next to me that looked really
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looked deep into his eyes I could see
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his soul and his soul looked brilliant
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of blue it was like he was pure and
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spotless and cleansed and clean and holy
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and you know it just I don't know why I
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could see blue when I looked in his eyes
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although his eyes were just as liquid
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brown as they were just beautiful Brown
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he had a close cut beard and his hair
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was very long and very dark and wavy and
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when he smiled he had dimples if it was
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he had the most beautiful smile I ever
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seen and he said where do I go to sit
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and I just cause anything at all so the
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two ladies that were sitting in front of
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me turned around and they were talking
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to him and they were telling him you
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know explaining how to get upstairs and
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you know whatever well at the same time
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he was talking to them he turned and was
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talking to me and he said what is
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happening to you in your life is
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happening you're not crazy I love you
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I'm with you don't be afraid
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nobody knew nobody knew what was going
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on in my head nobody but for him to say
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that to me
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I was yeah I couldn't stop staring at
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him I mean it was just like he probably
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thought that was hilarious because here
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my mouth is hanging to the ground and my
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I could but I'd my mouth was so dry I
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couldn't say a word and I'm thinking
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that maybe he it was like that so that I
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would be quiet and listen to what he had
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to say because what he had to say was
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very important you know what's happening
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to you is happening you're not crazy I'm
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with you well I no longer entertained
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the idea of killing myself that was the
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end of that and then he got up and when
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he got up he put his finger on the elbow
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of the lady who was sitting in front of
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me and she had arthritis so that and her
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arm as she couldn't bend her arm and
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when he touched her elbow it healed her
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elbow and so she we all went upstairs he
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went upstairs we finished practicing
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then it was our turn so we went up there
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and this way I even remember the song it
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was up to Jerusalem so we were standing
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up there on the altar and we were
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singing and only those four women and
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myself out of that whole choir saw him
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he sat right in front of us I send my
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heart out to him I just sang and sang
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and sang and then when we were and
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during the song he kind of did this put
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his hands over his face and he that son
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came through that window and just
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highlighted him and he was just
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magnificent and he was just beautiful
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but then when the song was over he got
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up and he kind of walked away but he
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didn't leave the church because I mean
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there's only one door in and one door
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out and he didn't go out as far as I
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could see and the way we're going
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did you see Jesus did you see Jesus and
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the other people in the choir were like
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Jesus what are you talking about Jesus
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we didn't see Jesus I said he was
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sitting right in front of you you would
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have had to trip over him not to see him
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he was right there
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and but nobody else saw him just just us
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five people me and those four ladies we
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we all talked about it for years
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do you remember when we saw Jesus in the
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church oh yes I do
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oh yes I do do you remember do you
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remember I mean every couple years I
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would call them up and do you still
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remember that that that really happened
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was that in my head I had all such a
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deep love for Jesus such a deep love for
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him it was I don't even know how to
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describe it it was he was always on my
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mind always in my heart and not far from
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my lips if anybody would listen to me
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and most wouldn't I've had a lot of
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people talk to me about this and they
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say well we know that he is a historical
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figure we know that he did exist he did
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get crucified and he did do this and
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this and this and I said well if you
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know that he was a historical figure and
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you know that he was crucified and you
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know that he did this this and this and
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you're reaching out and you want to know
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more about him then and you want to have
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interaction with him then you can sit
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down and talk to him just like I'm
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talking to you for one and to knowing of
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someone and knowing someone are two
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different things
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so I said learn as much about him as you
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can for one and to start talking to him
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because you can't have a relationship
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with someone you don't talk to you don't
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interact with it all and if you sit
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quietly and listen it's quiet all the
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mind chatter and quiet quiet the clock
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and I gotta be there oh my gosh oh
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that's re minutes okay
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Jesus I got five minutes your time is
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ticking thoughts start talking that's
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not how it works with him
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you know and sometimes he doesn't even
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have to speak sometimes he will show you
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things you know when you pray about
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something and you ask if you ask for it
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and you really feel it in your heart and
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you ask for it you're gonna get it you
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know so if you ask for patience you're
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going to get patience if you ask for
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clarity you're gonna get clarity if you
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ask for mercy you're gonna get mercy
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because that's the way he is I was
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sitting on my back steps talking on a
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cordless phone and it was starting to
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rain
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I hear this rumbling in the distance and
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as I know and then then a loud crack and
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that lightning came down and just hit my
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right arm and after it it passed through
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my body and left char marks on the
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concrete steps where I was sitting
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but that searing pain I will never
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forget that it was it was a instant
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burning searing agonizing pain when that
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lightning hit my arm it radiated into my
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chest the next thing I know my spirit is
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just peeling up out of me like you're
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peeling a banana and then just peeled
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right up out the next thing I know I was
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in my house but nothing in my house was
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my stuff and I I did not know at that
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particular moment that I was dead I had
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no idea what was going on I knew I was
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hit by lightning you're not in pain so
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something's happened what is really
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going on
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you know why is everything in here
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weird-looking this is your house you
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know this is your house you know how to
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get around in it you know the rooms but
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nothing in this house is yours and
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everything had this weird burnt gold
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look to it and I go and I'm standing in
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the kitchen and I'm looking at the
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curtains where the sink is the lace
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curtains on
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and they were not my curtains and I was
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like what is odd so I call it I walk
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into the dining room and the dining room
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furniture was not my stuff I heard this
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old-time radio show playing something
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like back in the days of the loans and I
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couldn't figure out where in the world
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that was that because we had no power so
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how could there be unless a radio
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playing with no power there were no
20:34
lights nothing and I knew my husband had
20:40
just walked in the door but he was
20:42
nowhere to be found my children were in
20:44
the house and they were nowhere to be
20:46
found and so I walked from the dining
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room into the living room and I'm
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looking and I go from living room into
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the parlor which is the front area and
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looking for this radio which was loud
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and it was like you know it had to be
21:04
somewhere but I couldn't find it it was
21:06
like where is this and I started to
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panic I mean this was like really really
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weird and I had no idea what was going
21:16
on and I felt frustrated because I
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didn't know where anybody was I didn't
21:22
know what this furniture was doing in my
21:24
house and where was I had to get about
21:27
what was happening to me and then just
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as I started to really lose it there was
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this huge loving formless presence I
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couldn't see this presence but I could
21:42
feel this presence in he was huge huge
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huge big as big as the house and it's
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wrapped me up it was like being wrapped
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in this soft warm blanket and I had
21:55
recognized that feeling before from when
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I was a little girl this was a lot
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bigger love than the light that came
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through the you know what because that
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was the light but this was just but it
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was the same kind of love and it was it
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just filled every cell in my body every
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pore was just it I felt like there was
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light coming out of every pore in my
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body and I was just filled with this
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love I've never I could never put into
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words and I had never experienced except
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for years ago when I was a little bit
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that still was mild compared to this as
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I was with this loving presence that was
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I kind of went we went sideways
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we didn't go up we didn't go down we
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moved lateral as if you were walking
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from one room in your house to another
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room sideways and the we went through
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these beautiful pink and gold clouds
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they were magnificent the clouds were
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just lined with gold you know they were
22:59
pink and fluffy and just absolutely was
23:03
magnificent things you've ever seen in
23:05
your life and so we were that we were
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moving very rapidly through these pink
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and gold clouds and that we got to the
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end of the pink and gold clouds that
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there was this magnificent garden and it
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was and I was kind of like okay and how
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did we get here and what is this and but
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I wasn't just in the wow factor because
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the colors were so beautiful and there
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were flowers everywhere and I heard
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birds and you know there were animals
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and there was a stream and that stream
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sparkled like diamonds the water was
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blue and just it was so beautiful just
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as the entrance I mean this all of this
23:47
was just at the entrance of the garden
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was magnificent Beauty and two men
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appeared they came to greet me and at
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first I thought they were angels they
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had this ivory linen clothing they were
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wearing ivory linen and it was a tightly
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woven like a herringbone weave and it's
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the I don't know why the we've stuck out
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but it was like the we've jumped off
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their shirt and was right here in my
24:17
face right here look at this look at
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this pattern this pad
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mean something I don't know what it
24:24
meant but that's exactly what it was I
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first thought they were angels they were
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young men about between 25 and 30 and
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they looked like they'd been out on the
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beach all day like Santa they were
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glowing
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they were beautiful their hair was a
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darker blond curly and had this color
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running through it you know highlights
24:45
and when they smiled it was like I know
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who you are
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these were my two brothers who had died
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when they were babies and now they were
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fully grown men and they look just like
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my dad when my dad was a young man when
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they smiled it was like oh my gosh wait
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and we just had this wonderful family
25:05
reunion it was just amazing I kept
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telling him dad would be so proud of you
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that's gonna be really proud of you
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they were so beautiful but all I can
25:16
remember is their gorgeous smiles
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they're absolutely beautiful smiles and
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they were smiling from ear-to-ear
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constantly and I was like oh she looked
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just like dad
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and I couldn't get over it and it was
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like I'm so happy to see you
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and I remember you and I know you and
25:35
you know me and you know that kind of
25:36
thing
25:37
Michael got on one side of me and Steven
25:39
got on the other side of me and we
25:41
walked and walked a little bit further
25:44
into the garden and as we did that the
25:46
that huge loving presence that was with
25:48
us got behind me so it was like the
25:54
three of us with this big huge living
25:56
presence behind me and we stopped and
26:03
when we stopped we kind of turned this
26:05
way and there was like it was like a
26:09
scream watching his screen and my life
26:13
on an old-fashioned movie ray lips is a
26:16
black-and-white screen an old-fashioned
26:19
movie on an old-fashioned movie reel and
26:22
this was my life review and not only did
26:25
I have my two brothers with me in this
26:28
huge living presence who I knew was God
26:31
there was a whole bunch of
26:34
people that came and they were all they
26:38
were loving on me too you know and I was
26:40
like I know them and they know me but I
26:43
didn't know from where I knew them from
26:44
and they were from all different time
26:46
periods and I noticed their clothes
26:49
that's why the women were wearing these
26:51
beautiful summer well not all of them
26:53
but some of them were wearing beautiful
26:55
gowns and now and I saw men in fancy
26:58
suits I saw people and regular clothes
27:00
like us and it was like how do I know
27:03
you but I do know you and you know me
27:07
and they were and it was like we were
27:08
having another family reunion with all
27:10
these people but they were all gathered
27:13
around for love and support and I was
27:16
supposed to be watching this movie and
27:17
so I was watching this movie and it was
27:21
from every from the moment I was born
27:24
until that time that I died but it was
27:27
over that fast and I thought I missed
27:31
something something's missing here and
27:34
because there was no judgment none at
27:37
all
27:37
I didn't judge myself I mean I learned
27:40
that the only judgment we have is could
27:43
we judge ourselves standing with God
27:45
there and all God does us love you
27:47
through it he doesn't judge you well I
27:50
didn't judge me either I just watched it
27:52
I was kind of going with the flow I was
27:54
like could have knocked me over with a
27:56
feather with everything that was going
27:58
on there is no price to be paid you're
28:01
not going to be punished he's not
28:03
standing there with us boiling a bong to
28:06
bring you on the back of your head okay
28:08
you did this smack or you did that smack
28:12
there's none of that because I even
28:14
asked my brothers I said am I missing
28:16
something my life seems pretty boring
28:19
you know what what I heard God's voice
28:24
it was a man's voice it was a gentle
28:27
voice it wasn't booming and angry it was
28:31
a gentle voice but he said what you put
28:35
out into the universe will come back to
28:37
you
28:38
I had never heard words like that before
28:41
I didn't know what in the world that
28:43
meant then all of a sudden it was like
28:45
being hooked up to a giant IV bottle of
28:48
knowledge I started getting all of those
28:51
divine knowledge and it was one aha
28:56
moment after another it was I was
29:01
getting answers to questions that
29:03
mankind has been asking since the
29:05
beginning of time but I didn't know how
29:07
to ask those questions I didn't even
29:09
have to ask them before I had the
29:11
answers and it was like I was just blown
29:15
away you know and I call it the wow
29:17
factor again and it was like oh my gosh
29:20
this is God you were so awesome and I
29:23
kept saying this over and over God you
29:25
are so awesome and we human beings we
29:29
make everything so complicated and
29:30
you're not complicated as although
29:32
you're very simple and this is just so
29:35
cool you know and it was just all of
29:39
this information was coming to me and
29:43
you know and I was like seeing these
29:49
scientists with these chalkboards that
29:51
are 10 miles long and they had these
29:53
equations that are 10 miles long to
29:56
explain one little theory that's not how
29:59
it is God was saying that's too
30:02
complicated they everybody you guys make
30:06
everything so complicated we do you know
30:08
it's really not that complicated it's
30:11
like God took this like this put it
30:14
together and there you have it it's the
30:17
little things that you do it's the
30:20
little things
30:21
the loving things or they're not so
30:25
loving things it it's not these grand
30:27
great big humongous things that people
30:30
think they have to do in order to earn
30:32
your way and just have a heaven because
30:34
you can't earn your way into heaven no
30:35
matter what you do for one and for two
30:39
it's the little things it's the the
30:42
smile you gave to someone whose life was
30:46
really a mess the hand on the shoulder
30:48
it's the you sharing your toys when you
30:52
were little
30:53
it's the here you lost your sweater and
30:58
your cold here's my sweater you know
31:01
little things things you don't think
31:04
would matter at all that's the stuff
31:07
that matters you know I've got a high
31:10
school education I've got a year of
31:12
trade school you know Beauty College I'm
31:14
not a theologian I'm not a scientist I'm
31:19
not you know I'm just a country a
31:23
country bumpkin I live in West Virginia
31:26
and I I'm a housewife I take care of my
31:28
kids and my grandkids and you know and I
31:30
I don't have any knowledge about
31:32
anything really and so I'm getting all
31:36
this huge huge knowledge and I'm just
31:42
blown away and just like wow wow well
31:45
god you're so awesome ears and I just
31:47
you're so awesome god I tell people
31:50
about the vibrations heaven is moving at
31:54
such a fast vibration it is so high it
31:57
is so heavenly even though it's right
32:04
here and you're not going up way up in
32:06
the sky in the clouds sitting on a big
32:08
cloud playing silver harp or whatever
32:11
that's not the I didn't go up and I
32:14
didn't go down
32:15
I moved sideways and so what taught me
32:18
that heaven is no further away than your
32:20
own backyard it's no further away and
32:23
you can have heaven right here right now
32:27
it's just a matter of your perception it
32:31
is the most beautiful place there oh my
32:34
gosh there is no judgment and there is
32:36
no punishment and the consequences is
32:39
not a punishment it just is what it is
32:43
here's somebody who is deeply wounded
32:46
and they get physically hurt so they get
32:51
on pain medication for that and they
32:55
realized that that not only takes care
32:57
of their physical pain but it takes care
32:59
of their the emotional pain too so they
33:00
just keep taking it
33:02
Wow and then they become mean or they
33:05
mix it with alcohol or they do whatever
33:07
or they step up from pills to whatever I
33:11
thought okay I'm bad I've gone through
33:14
all of this already so I wanted to know
33:17
if I still had a body I noticed my
33:19
brothers had bodies all these other
33:21
people had bodies and everybody was
33:24
dressed so that was a big deal so I
33:27
looked down the front of me like this
33:29
I could see my hair down the front of me
33:32
I could see my shirt my pants my feet
33:34
and I was like I've still got a body
33:38
yeah and but it was a light body it
33:44
wasn't heavy and weighed down by gravity
33:47
doesn't feel like the kind of bodies
33:49
that we have you know like what how you
33:52
feel how I feel which is you know heavy
33:54
it didn't feel like that it felt less
33:57
light as a feather and I glowed like
34:00
everybody else was glowing you know it
34:03
was like oh my goodness and I felt
34:05
beautiful for the first time I felt
34:10
beautiful and I felt cared about and
34:13
loved and accepted and people weren't
34:16
judging me because I didn't have my hair
34:18
done right or my makeup on or I wasn't -
34:21
you know was I too fat or was I not
34:24
dressed you know well enough or whatever
34:29
because everybody loved me and accepted
34:32
me and I felt so beautiful
34:36
and I'd never felt that way I mean I did
34:40
when I was a child growing up but when I
34:42
would became an adult the relationships
34:45
that I'd had and and the the world told
34:50
me you're not worth anything you're ugly
34:54
you're this you're that whatever but I
34:56
didn't feel that at all and it was so
34:59
wonderful well one of the things that I
35:02
learned at that point is that I still
35:06
looked like me
35:07
I still felt like me I still thought
35:11
like me I was still me the only thing
35:14
that died was my physical body I have
35:17
not my physical body you are not yours
35:21
that there's we are souls that have
35:25
spirits and that's that is the part of
35:29
us that lives forever that is not gonna
35:32
go away
35:33
that is not gonna die your physical body
35:35
will just but but you will still be you
35:41
you will still think the way you think
35:44
you will still feel like you you will
35:46
look like you only better my brothers
35:49
and I can continued walking through the
35:52
garden and I was noticing the the
35:55
landscapes and I saw some buildings and
35:59
it was like there was this beautiful
36:04
city and in the middle of the city was
36:08
this building that had a beautiful
36:10
golden dome was huge and there were
36:13
other buildings on the outskirts of the
36:16
city so I'm standing in this garden and
36:21
there was also a field stone wall that
36:24
had beautiful pink roses growing up and
36:27
over the wall and I know God put that
36:30
there because I love pink roses so he
36:33
puts this you know I'm seeing the these
36:36
gorgeous pink roses and then all these
36:39
other flowers that are the reds are red
36:41
or the Pink's are pink or the yellows
36:43
are yellow and it just
36:46
everything was so beautiful so I could
36:49
see these buildings on the outskirts of
36:52
the city there's a wall around the city
36:55
and then the buildings on the outskirts
36:59
of the city and I noticed houses
37:03
I could see individual look like homes
37:06
people's homes and there was one that
37:09
was like it looked like it was on a
37:10
hillside or cliffside and there was like
37:14
ocean you could see the waves and the
37:17
house was like I don't know was made out
37:21
of some kind of stone that glistened it
37:25
as some kind of crystal or something it
37:27
was absolutely beautiful and I saw
37:30
another house that looked something like
37:32
a like an English cottage made of stone
37:36
also and there were the most beautiful
37:39
gardens in the back part of the house
37:42
and like in the backyard the Roses
37:45
everywhere because I love roses but I so
37:48
i zoom right in on the road I saw
37:51
buildings that have these beautiful
37:53
healing pools and I was given the
37:56
information that those are people who
37:59
have died from traumatic deaths or very
38:02
quick deaths and they don't know that
38:05
they're dead they are taken to places
38:07
like that and there gently brought to
38:09
the awareness of what's happened there
38:12
are angels and mentors and teachers and
38:17
loved ones who have passed on and that
38:20
becomes their job to greet people that
38:23
have come and you know that have just
38:24
died and they greet you and they they
38:27
get you acclimated to where you are and
38:29
they they're very gentle about what they
38:32
do you know and there's a I saw a
38:36
building and and these buildings are
38:38
like alabaster you know marble and
38:42
they're magnificent they were so
38:43
beautiful and there was one building and
38:46
and I saw some children and I after
38:52
seeing my brothers I was also realized
38:54
that babies and children who died
38:58
they are taken care of by angels and
39:02
loved ones who are specifically trained
39:04
to help these children grow and they
39:07
grow physically but they also grow
39:09
spiritually and they're you know and
39:14
that's what happened with my brothers
39:16
when they died they were just babies and
39:19
they grew up to be beautiful young men
39:24
and I saw it looked like a giant library
39:29
the walls were just lined with thousands
39:31
and thousands of books for every subject
39:34
you could possibly think of and I know
39:37
that there and I saw schools there but
39:40
these are not schools of science like we
39:42
have here these are schools for
39:44
spiritual growth
39:45
you can might go to spiritual college so
39:48
I saw things like that rolling I saw
39:51
rolling hills and valleys and places
39:54
where our pets go animals you know they
39:57
run free they roam free horses and cows
40:02
and ducks and all of them you know
40:04
anything and then I heard this music
40:08
that was the most magnificent music I've
40:10
ever heard in my life the leaves on the
40:12
trees had with migration each blade of
40:14
grass has a vibration the rocks that
40:17
were in this stream that sparkled like
40:19
diamonds the water has a vibration the
40:22
rock has a vibration the animals
40:25
everything has its own vibration even
40:29
the colors if you imagine the colors of
40:32
a rainbow each color has its own
40:33
vibration so a rainbow is not just a
40:36
rainbow but pretty to look at but it's
40:38
also vibration you can hear a rainbow
40:40
you know because each color has its own
40:43
sound so when you take all of those
40:45
individual sounds and you put them
40:47
together it was the most magnificent
40:50
orchestra and choir I've ever heard and
40:53
though everything was singing praises to
40:54
God it was just amazing what i-i've told
40:57
people that's before that if that have
41:00
written to me or called me and they
41:03
don't feel that God loves them they're
41:06
feel alone or whatever and I said stop
41:09
think about this for a second
41:11
God loves you as if you were the only
41:14
one he ever created and he loves you so
41:17
much that he thinks about you every
41:20
single second of every single day and if
41:23
he stopped thinking about you
41:25
you would just poof you would cease to
41:28
exist as if you never were so you know
41:32
that he loves you so much like I said as
41:38
if you were the only one and he loves
41:41
each one of us as if we were the only
41:44
one he ever created there is a beautiful
41:48
life after this life and the things that
41:53
are happening in this world the horrors
41:55
that you're talking about that happens
41:59
because of people's selfishness
42:01
you know God gives us free well he's a
42:05
gentleman he's not gonna step in and
42:07
stay I say wait a second that's this
42:09
person sacred space don't go in there
42:11
you stay over here in your little corner
42:14
you know he doesn't do that we have to
42:16
learn as as if that's his human kindness
42:20
people that we are here to learn how to
42:24
love and be loved and there are many
42:27
kinds of love but that the kind of love
42:30
that we are here to learn how to to do
42:33
is the agape love it
42:37
the way that God loves us
42:38
unconditionally no strings attached you
42:42
don't have to earn it you don't have to
42:44
do anything to get it
42:46
he just loves you he likes you and he
42:49
loves you period and you don't have to
42:52
do anything for it having said that
42:54
there are people out there who don't
42:57
honor other people's sacred space and
42:59
they're selfish and they want what they
43:02
want and so they're going to impose
43:08
their freewill
43:09
onto someone else and that's how a lot
43:12
of children get hurt people get you know
43:15
people get raped people get murdered you
43:18
know it's it's selfishness pure and
43:21
simple the opposite of love is not hate
43:23
its selfishness and hatred is born out
43:27
of selfishness after I got the download
43:32
of information and I got an
43:35
understanding of what he meant by what
43:39
you put out into the universe will come
43:41
back to you because I had never heard
43:42
words like that before and it was like
43:46
if you could imagine a boomerang and how
43:50
a boomerang spins and spins and goes up
43:53
and then comes back okay so this is a
43:56
boomerang effect but if you put out love
44:03
and respect and
44:12
caring and compassion that's what you're
44:15
going to get back if you put out lying
44:18
and cheating and stealing and and those
44:21
kinds of things that's what you're going
44:23
to get back but what happens is the
44:29
things that you think the things that
44:31
you say and the things that you feel go
44:35
out come out of you go out into the
44:38
universe spin gain momentum and then
44:42
come back and they get you and it's you
44:45
don't know when you don't know how and
44:48
people call this karma people call this
44:50
you know whatever they call it but it's
44:54
like a natural law of God it's just a
44:56
normal natural God made law it's not a
45:01
punishment good decisions make good
45:06
consequences bad decisions make that
45:10
consequences that's you know you have to
45:13
be very careful what it is
45:15
you also another thing that I learned is
45:17
that what you feel you fill your soul
45:21
with those things you fill your life
45:22
with you don't put trash into your heart
45:25
in your mind so if you fill your life
45:29
with beauty and love and compassion and
45:32
good things you watch good things on TV
45:35
you listen to good music if you live
45:38
that your feeling your soul with that
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